To the girl I used to be,
There may be times in which you find life to be a little bit unbearable. It might feel like the darkness is closing in and it’s barely nine o’clock in the morning. I’m sorry to admit that these days will come frequently and you may feel a bit fed up. But keep on going because what comes next is worth it. Right now today feels like the absolute worst, but tomorrow will be better.
University will come to an end and you’ll have to enter the big bad world. Adulting isn’t always fun and paying bills is a nightmare. Top tip: don’t buy the shoes, buy some food instead – living off Supernoodles is boring and not exactly healthy. But don’t panic! Your parents have got your back and will always catch you when you fall. No one will love you more than they do – or take you back in on multiple occasions because your living situation didn’t quite work out (but that’s a story for another day).
You are going to get your heart broken. Either by a boy you’ve come to love, or by an author who kills off characters that you’ve invested a lot of time and effort in – Yes, Martin, I’m talking about you. This boy may seem like your life right now, but there’s more to life than him. Don’t become dependent, it makes it easier afterwards if you know how to heal yourself. He’s going to move on, and it may be quicker than you. It will sting, and if you want to cry then let it all out. Put on The Notebook, and snuggle down with the only men you need: Ben & Jerry. Emotions are a part of life and once your tears have exhausted your body of all possible hydration, that feeling of relief will settle in and the weight on your chest will lift. And while you’re sat surrounded by tissues in three day old pyjamas with a nose redder than a Belisha beacon, you’ll laugh at what a mess you are.
The most important thing is to keep on going. Never stop trying because you question what’s the point. It will get better, and I promise you opportunities will arise and soon you won’t even be on this continent – but that’s something I’ll let you find out for yourself. Don’t let yourself, or your life, be dictated by someone who you thought was your one and only, but was really a place holder for your future happiness. You do you and never care what people think, as cliche as that may well sound. Your friends will keep you safe and sound, so listen when they tell you what’s what. Don’t think people are out to get you, they only want what’s best.
And most importantly; listen closely when people tell you that time is a healer. At the time you won’t want to know, but keep it safe at the back of your mind. Things get better and the sun will come out. You’ve got some exciting times ahead of you kid, don’t you let them go to waste.
Good luck, and all the best.
From the girl you will become.
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